Guilt

Give me a signal
Give me a lie
but most of all
Break me and let me die

Somethings are ever changing
And other things undone
You weren’t meant to save me
And we weren’t meant to love

I like hearing you speak to me
Give me a reason to try and break my fall
But the emptiness inside keeps growing
And the pain breaks down my wall

Inside of dreams and heaven
I see you look me in the eyes
You told me once they were kind
In words written as a warning of a lie

I want to keep on singing
That quiet song of pain
The one only you have known
That echoes in the rain

You hear all the things I’m thinking
The bittersweet and lost
These thoughts of mine are darker now
Than the ocean at its deepest

I keep seeing you dying
My a knife in my hands
I’m scared I’ll kill you twice
Scared even more that I won’t survive

It hurts enough to know I helped the first time
And guilt keeps me listening
Trying to prove I’m not the same
You’ve seen me at my worst

But you still won’t let me in
You stopped talking by the end
And on the mornings dawn
When the rays hit your skin

Remember the little sister
Who killed you once
And walked away
Scared she’d kill you again