I had my chance
A month ago
To say goodbye
And I let it go
Now not a day goes by
Where I don’t wonder why.
How on your last night
I didn’t call to say ‘I love you’ one last time.
Why you didn’t call me to ask me why.
Why I didn’t mean enough
To be loved like you loved her
Why…
There’s this deep emptiness in me
Where a piece of you used to be
You gave me that
Three years ago gone by
Everytime I think about
What’s happened to us
I stop and think if I had stopped it then
When it all began three months ago
Would this be happening now
Would I feel so completely abandoned.
You love her
And never me.
Supposedly you asked about me
When you spoke to her
But I don’t believe a word of it
Because she’s trying to make me feel better
About never being loved by the person I love.
I regret two things in this world
Not saying goodbye on that night
And loving you for as long as I did.
koi, i wasnt jsut trying to make you feel better. believe me or not, its your choice. but just kno this. ive never lied to you. and im sorry for the way that he felt. i cant change that. but i think that you should stop thinking about what has happened and start thinking about what will happen. think ahead, not backwards. you cant change the past. you kno this. i just wish you’d try to see that. dont regret him. thats a part of you you cant change. you cant change that you loved him. you just cant. i kno you think you want to. but just TRY to accept it. hes not gone. he’ll be back. when, i cannot say. over time, the hole he left will fill. never quite closing up completely. you will think of him from time to time. just kno that im doing the same. im thinking about all of you. nii-chan, you, Pat, Jamie, everyone. everyday. all the things that i could have said and done differently, but i dont dwell on them. i kno that i cant change them. i jsut try to mold the future around the past’s mishaps. nothing more, nothing less. jsut kno that no matter what happened, you can always turn to me for safety. sisters till the end, remember?
“do or do not
there is no try
time always passes”
i love you nee-chan