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Broken

Give me hope,
A broken heart,
A life a lie,
Neverending.

Stop sending mixed signals
Of things that can’t ever be
Stopping dropping hints
Of the things we’ll never do

I hate the dream
That means nothing in the end
The fact that you’re leaving
That I’ll be alone

Nothings been the same
Since that February afternoon
Its all still burned into me
Nevr letting go

The taste of you on my lips
The feel of you holding me down
The words you whispered
Breaking my heart

Not meant to be
A nonexistant dream
I can’t forgive you
For what you did to me.

Chapter Two| Night of the Crescent

I figured he had been telling me the truth, when I woke up. Not only was I in a bed staring at a ridiculously beige ceiling. But there was sunlight instead of stars in the inky blackness of the night sky.

Why does everything in the Army have to be brown or a shade of brown? Seriously brown makes me nuts. Beige and tope that’s the color of my room in our trailer sized home. I practically groaned at the thought of leaving my room to see the rest of the trailer.

“Jayd I know you’re awake so you might as well come have some breakfast.” My mother called from another room.

Now I really did groan. I actually had to get out of bed. So like any normal teenager I lounged for a moment longer then got my things together to take a shower. You know just the usual a change of clothes, my toiletries, and a towel.

The hallway was bright. Apparently we were lucky and got a trailer with a yellow hallway. Just what I needed a color that directly clashed with all the colors of my wardrobe. But I wasn’t going to be spending more than a few moments in the hallway at any given time so I should be fine. And my clothes shouldn’t burst into flame at the mere intensity of the brightness. Which would be just a little weird but stranger things have happened.

The bathroom is smaller than I’m used to. No bathtub just a shower stall and toilet and a small sink. And there was this really tiny mirror hanging over the sink that I’m assuming is military issue because its square and matches the rest of the room perfectly. Stupid precision nuts.

But the water was warm. It could have been better, hell it would have been if I didn’t keep hitting my elbows on the walls. I felt vaguely like I was on a rocking cruise ship with how cramped the space was. But I managed to take my shower with much more injury to myself.

Finishing up I brushed my teeth and dressed after I dried off and went out to the kitchen. My mother was standing in front of the sink washing dishes and dad was sitting at the table reading the paper. It was so normal looking that I almost could believe my father wasn’t in the army and we weren’t living in a trailer but our home back in Boston.

“Good morning Jayd.” My mother said turning off the water.

“Morning mom.” I plunked down in one of the free chairs at the table and served myself a portion of almost everything but the bacon and eggs.

I’m pretty bad about eating things that came from animals. Well really anything that includes protein that comes from an animal never makes it to my stomach. My dad used to joke that I was an unofficial vegan. I’m not I still like to eat meat, I just don’t eat eggs, pork, or veal.

“I see our local vegan has decided to join us finally.” My dad grumbled folding the paper and laying it down next to him.

He looked upset. Real upset and I learned a long time ago that if he looks like that don’t say anything until he’s done with whatever speech he has to give you. That and my head still hurt. There was this faint throbbing and I really just wanted to get some Advil to make it go away. But I couldn’t, not until Daddy dearest finish his speech.

“The boy you were with on the plane. Who is he?”

Well that was certainly a question out of left field.

“I don’t know. I never caught his name.” I said softly shrugging my shoulders.

“Where did he take you?”

Again I shrugged in response. It wasn’t like I could tell him I’d been unconscious for the majority of my disappearance. He’d probably go out and kill the kid.

“Did he say anything to you?”

I hesitated. I shouldn’t have. He grasped onto it and didn’t let go. Knowing that an answer in anything other than the affirmative would be a lie. Giving in I nodded slowly.

“Well? What did he say?”

I shrugged one last time. Kept my face carefully masked so that he wouldn’t catch any kind of expression that would hint at the lie I’d just fed him. He studied me and I picked at the French toast on my plate. They were still warm and really soft, just the way I liked them.

“I’m assuming from the shrug you weren’t paying any attention?”

“Basically. How much attention would you give your kidnapper?”

I wanted to slam my head onto the table at the glare he gave me. Insolence had never been tolerated and my open display of it just then had not been the wisest of the things I’ve said today. Finally after scooting my French toast around the plate a couple times I pushed my chair back. Me and my plate on the way to the garbage and then the sink to wash my dish.

“I’m going out to explore.” I said heading back to my room to grab a light jacket.

They didn’t stop me. Although I’m pretty sure Dad wanted to more than his stoic appearance let on. But neither moved as I walked out the front door. My body already set in the direction of the woods near the edge of the base. Last time I’d been here the local kids played in there often enough. Maybe I’d get lucky as the day wore on and make some new friends.

That was almost comical the very thought at least. Considering the woods being only twenty feet away seemed dark and unwelcoming to me. And I wasn’t one to ever be frightened by much of anything. Not usually anyway. But apparently something had changed in the ten or twelve years since I was here last. Changed enough to make the once friendly woods seem ominous.

The woods were just as I remembered them once I breached the outer edge of brush. The path that led from the bases side of the wood to the towns was still visible a few more yards in. I had the vague sense of homecoming like I belonged in this wood. Which was unlikely with all the moving around I would be doing now that I was old enough to know how to keep my mouth shut.

I laughed at the idea of staying in Somnus after my father was once more reassigned. I was unprepared for the wash of sorrow that followed after the hollow sound so shortly afterward. I couldn’t possibly be becoming attached to Somnus. I hadn’t been here in years. And yet the feeling of sorrow persisted.

Shrugging I followed the path before me. Going deeper into the woods and farther away from the base. I personally didn’t want to be within a hundred yard radius of their current location. Although I still had a few yards to go before I could actually say I’d achieved that goal. There was a tree stump a few yards a head and that’s where I would sit and ponder my peculiar notion of sorrow at having to leave Somnus behind one day.

Ten years away shouldn’t be doing that to me especially when I just got back. I looked at my watch. It was one of those watches with a phases of the moon dial beneath the face itself. It wasn’t so much to check the time thought as it was to check the phase.

“Waxing crescent…of my fifteenth year.”

It snuck up on me that explained the connected feeling to Somnus and his warning. My special talent would come into full tonight. An all night meditation within the woods was in order. Nothing like disappearing in the middle of the night to wake up two days in the past or future.

A twig snapped in the distance. My head snapped up like I expected to find something flying my way. But nothing was there. Not surprising. Although it would have been easier to put the feeling of being watched to rest if I could put a definite animal to the sound. But I had a feeling that I wasn’t going to be that lucky.

“I thought I’d find you here.”

Eyes wide I swiveled around to see the speaker. Not that I had to turn to know. Those rich sensual tones could only belong to Mr. Rich Hunk of the plane. But there was another with him, standing in the shadows just out of my sight. Squinting I tried to make them out, beginning to feel more than just a little uneasy.

“Relax. Marcus isn’t going to do anything to you. I assure you.”

I nodded slowly rolling my shoulders to release the tension. A few of the upper vertebrae cracked in response. I guess I had tensed a lot more than I had initially intended.

For a few moments questions swirled through my mind. All of them asking about him. Who he was? Why he was here? Why he’d kidnapped me? Well that one I had a half answer to already but still. However I spoke before I had any idea what exactly to ask him.

“What are you doing here?”

He chuckled at me, almost like he was amused and I noticed that his friend, Marcus, joined in. Like they were sharing a joke that I wasn’t privy to. I huffed at them both I hated secrets. I hated them more than I hated anything else in this world.

“Sorry, Jayd. I just thought a more pressing question would be: Who are you? Not What I’m doing here.” He explained his features apologetic.

Well good he should be apologetic. At least for scaring me. This didn’t tall all that much to do anymore. Sighing I closed my eyes for several minutes to calm myself. A huff escaped my lips as the very idea took on being impossible. The whole very idea seemed like something that should be avoided. But he was right in a sense. I should asking for his name not what he was doing there.

“Very well who are you?” I asked on a sigh.

He smiled at me, a lopsided curl of the lips that would have sent my heart fluttering, if it hadn’t been for it feeling that I’d walked right into a trap he laid for me.

“My names Robert, Robert White.”

The words flowed over me in familiar cadences that I had heard in my early years as a jumper. A jumper that’s what I call myself. I’m not suicidal as the term would imply to anyone else. I just call my leaps through time as jumps and others like me as jumpers. Not that I’d met any.

My eyebrows went up questioningly. However I managed to restrain my shoulder from shrugging in an ‘-should-care-way’ gesture. Something told me I shouldn’t piss them off. My eyes shooting toward where Marcus was still standing in the shade of the trees.

“You’re going be difficult tonight aren’t you?” I heard Robert murmur in my ear, “On this nigh of the crescent moon.”

My body stiffened in response. My parents didn’t even know that the crescent moon tonight symbolized a big change in my life. How did they know about it?

A chuckle brought me out of my reverie as my eyes settled on Robert.

“What are you laughing at?”

“I told you, I can hear what you’re thinking.”

“Well isn’t that pleasant.” My voice dripped with sarcasm as I spoke. “Stay out!”

Again he laughed at this time Marcus joined him. I turned my gaze to him. I hadn’t noticed before but his eyes were silver, and almost glowed in the semi darkness of the shade of the trees. It was then that I realized what he was exactly. No human being could ever have silver eyes like those. Sure I knew of plenty of people with gray silver eyes but not one of them had eyes that almost could be said to glow in the dark.

“Ah I see you’ve placed the origins of one of us. But I wonder…” His melodious voice was once more near my ear as he spoke this time it was deeper and if I hadn’t been well versed cadences and sounds I wouldn’t have been able to place the slight husky tone to it, “can you place what I am?”

I shied away from him instinctively. My feet pushing my body out of its sitting position into one standing a good ten feet away from him. Halfway between him and Marcus, and again I got the feeling that I had just let myself walk right into a trap.

“Robert.”

I glanced over my shoulder at Marcus sure to keep my other eye on Robert. Just in case. I didn’t want to be caught off guard. But his voice, well everything about him really as he stepped a little out from the shadows. If it had been anyone else… If he had been anything else I could have sworn it was love at first sight. But he was a demon, I still wasn’t sure just what kind of demon but a demon nonetheless.

“Before you scare her, just tell her why we’re here.” Marcus said his voice strong like you would expect of someone who was used to getting his own way all the time. But it held that same lulling lilt to it. Later I would think it ironic that they would seem so similar in some very odd ways.

“Fine. We’re here to keep you safe. And don’t tell us you don’t need it. Especially tonight you’ll need it more than ever.”

Robert seemed to be fighting between calm and scowling because his features didn’t have that charming appeal they did a few moments earlier. Then his words sunk in, keep me safe. From what? Seriously if anything happened I could simply time hop back and change what I did just before. Well it isn’t exactly that simple but that’s really all there is to it.

“And you’re to protect me from what exactly?” I asked my voice sound incredulous to my own ears.

Robert glared at me before turning to face Marcus. The two of them seemed to share a silent communication. Probably through telepathy although I’d never heard of a demon possessing telepathic abilities. Or maybe it was through subsonic speech.

There were a few demonic species that shared that particular trait with the vampire. I stared wide eyed at Robert. Well that sadly made just as much sense as Marcus being a demon. The green-gold eyes should have tipped me off when I was in the car with him. Apparently I hadn’t been paying very good attention.

They seemed to come to some sort of agreement as I placed my hands close to my throat. My fingers clutching at my Scorpio charm beneath my shirt. The only gift my great-grandmother was able to give me before she died under suspicious circumstances. She had told me that it would protect me from all things wishing to harm me.

Of course I had been five at the time and I hadn’t really understood what she was talking about. But as I became more and more abnormally aware of time and started passing through different time periods her words actually started making sense.

“Our orders were to bring you with us. Beyond that we can not tell you who or what we’re protecting you from.” Marcus said finally causing my head to turn around at a painful angle.

I shook my head. They were evil creatures. I had a power from the light. They could not harm me as long as I wore the charm and they could not take me away as long as my connection to this forest stood. I was safe from them always.

“You’ll come with us Jayd.” Roberts voice murmured softly in my ear as something hit me at one of the pressure points at my neck.

My eyes seeking a face found Marcus’s and as I tumbled to the ground everything went black around me as unconsciousness claimed me. Barely aware of the glare Marcus shot Roberts way.

Forgive Me

I sit here
Eyes flowing with tears
At the fact that I lost
A battle that you win everytime

I just want to help
I’m doing a terrible job
You hardly talk
It hurts to watch

I feel like shit
Cause your projecting so strong
I’m amazed that the town
Isn’t crying like I am

Maybe I’m just more attuned to you
Than most else that you know
I want more than anything to see you happy
But I know you’ll need time

I want to help
But I can’t
It hurts to know
That the one person…

I would give anything to take your pain away
So you wouldn’t have to be this way
So you could keep being who you are
And not worry about the tears she shed

I’m sorry that I’m not able to help you
Like you’ve helped me…

Aquarius

Preface| The Chosen Zodiac

My name is Vivian, I’ve lived in Somnus, California for the last sixteen years. I’ve always known if something was going to happen. Hell my parents have come to trust my judgement when it comes to stocks. But no one knows about my secret life. The person my peers see by day or at social functions is a carefully constructed costume of lies, deceit and charades. In sixteen years only one person has ever broken through the ficade.

And its this story, my story, his story, and her story that I want to tell. The story that ties all of us together. Us…The Chosen Zodiac. A title that should have been reserved for a generation yet to come, but the future changed long before I was born and able to see.

Jayd, Alicia, Sonya, and myself we are the chosen. Its our story that I’ll begin now. I was the first to fully awaken on my fifteenth gibbous moon. Jayd would be next on the crescent moon near the end of the year and then Sonya, and lastly Alicia. The four of us coming to together to stop the balance from being destroyed.

For me the goal was to keep myself from falling into the U.S. Miliatries hands. Imagine the advantage I could give with my ability to see the future. No contry should have such a large advantage over the other. If that were to happen things would stop following the plan Mother Earth set for us.

For Jayd it was to keep from becoming the human puritists weapon. Sonya to keep from becoming the bride of the vampire king. And Alicia to never fall in love. We each have had our trials and tribulations. But from here you will hear the beginning of The Chosen Zodiac. Before ascention, before love, before death, and before moving on to pick the pieces up from the dust. And our last and most painful memory of those of us remaining the death of a sister.

© Kitera Ai, 2007

Scorpio

Preface| Waxing

I hate them. Who? My parents. Why? Oh I don’t know because they were moving me away from my suburban home of fifteen years to some little village on the west coast. Why? Oh just because Daddy was being transferred to yet another base. Why because he’s a god damn Colonel and they want him there. Because he’s got a PhD, in what I still don’t know, but I’m betting on nuclear physics or something like that. And an expert on some -ology or something. I stopped paying attention when I was about five.

So my parents are moving all of us to some base in Northern California. And I mean the people in the so called town just outside the base aren’t bad. I was there once before when I was little. Dad was out there and had left Mom and me in Boston not wanting us to be around because I was too small. What did he know, he’s never home. Was never around even when he should have been teaching me how to ride a bike and play softball.

Did I mention that they’re taking me away from my friends and putting me into this small close knit environment of teenagers that have been friends since diapers. I don’t do that. I never have. I have one friend here, Marie, and I like that way. And when I move into Somnus I’ll probably end up pulling out my hair. I grew up in suburbia. I’m not going to fit in at the public high school. Can you even see me, Jayd Sage, even beginning to fit in among these people who’ve known each other forever?

Granted I’m not going to fit in among a bunch of cadets either, but it might be a little better than dealing with kids who live a two and half hour drive away from the nearest mall. And that’s just if you’re heading north. Yes that’s right you have to drive into the next state for the nearest mall and you can’t even consider it more than a building with a bunch of stores selling ripped off versions of last years fashions.

Update Chapter I

Chapter One| WarningI looked out the car window. I wouldn’t admit it but I was going to miss Boston. The outskirts have been my home for so long. And my dad is sitting in the front seat cruising the streets to the airport like nothing’s any different than any other time he came home for leave and was quickly reassigned somewhere else.

I heaved a sigh from the backseat. It had to be my millionth drive to the airport in fifteen years. Only this time my stuff was crammed in the trunk as well, with all my larger belongings taking a cross country drive via army truck. Apparently dads pretty important to whatever he’s being transferred to Somnus for. I found it rather depressing that the move was being forced on me. Marie offered to let me stay with her until the summer so I could at least say goodbye to my teachers. But my parents said they couldn’t let me do that.

Dad parked the old sedan in the temporary parking lot. The car service would be coming by to pick it up later. Since now we were selling it, never to be seen again. My feet dragging against the pavement as we caught the bus to the main terminals so we could fly out to LAX, and then catch a charter plane to the airstrip just outside of Somnus on the base.

Fort Summerton, that was to be my new home. In some little rinky-dink building that was scarcely bigger than a trailer in a trailer park. But then again the base did have access to a large portion of forest that I was free to roam whenever I felt. This comes in pretty handy for me.

As for the school it’s a two mile walk from the base. This is tolerable after my father made me train until I could run five or six miles without stopping once I turned eight. Takes me a while to do it but I can. I just hope it doesn’t rain while I’m walking. I don’t mind getting wet but being soaked like Somnus is known to be during school hours would be uncomfortable.

The jet boarded without any problems. My parents had enough foresight to get me a seat as far away from them as possible. Because I still was really mad at them. Although I think a better would be I was bordering on starting one hell of an argument that would really make my father think I was six or seven instead of fifteen.

Taking my seat I was disappointed to find that my seat was the window seat of row “f”. I’m claustrophobic. Which means I’ll start flipping out the minute the person whose supposed to sit in seat 33 sits down. I turned and glared at my mother in row “A”. She knew this about me. Just like she knew that it was usually the quickest and easiest route humbling me. Well not this time. I huffed my strawberry red hair out of my face and sat down, shoving my carry on under the seat in front of me and buckling up.

It didn’t take long for my “mate” to join me. I was surprised to find it was a boy who looked about my age. In first class and seemingly alone. Or maybe he was a little older. Yes I think he’s a year or two older. I didn’t even notice I’d been staring at him, at least not until he shifted in his seat to look at me.

“Can I help you?” he asked his voice wrapping around me like a warm blanket.

I surprised myself that I didn’t close my eyes and smile in ecstasy. His voice suited him so well. He had this really faint accent that I couldn’t place. He had particularly nice facial features almost haunting in the way they were so pale. The brightest things about him was his dirty blond hair and green eyes. No green is not the right word for the color of his eyes. Its too bland. His eyes were fathomless, for a moment I swore I was lost within them. And they were a vibrant hunter green mixed with gold. I’d never seen eyes like that, and I was sure I’d never see eyes like that again.

Slowly coming out of the daze his face created I shook my head sitting back in my seat as we took off. I hate the claustrophobia and I hate planes even more for giving me motion sickness. Which I had completely forgotten since it had been at least five years since I’d been on one. But let’s just say the guy next to me isn’t about to forget that particular flight. I felt horrible even while being angry at myself for not taking Dramamine.

Needless to say I spent the majority of the flight locked in a bathroom. I was in there for who knows how long but someone decided to interrupt my vomit-fest and knock on the door. Which seemed rather pointless. Seriously you could hear me retching through the door. The knock just got louder the longer I didn’t respond, finally being able to swallow what was left in my stomach I opened the door.

“I’m sorry miss, but you need to return to you seat. We’re about to land.” A flight attendant said looking at me warily as if I was expected to vomit on them as well.

Well golly Miss Molly I’m sorry that I get motion sickness. I can’t help it and the lack of Dramamine made it that much easier to go spewing all over Mr. Rich Hunk’s lap and sweater. And I couldn’t blame the look he shot me as I sat down. It was almost as if he was angry but more controlled, but I only had a second to view it because in the next instant he was pushing me into my seat. I think he saw me turn several shades of green as the plane hit a small pocket of turbulence.

Buckling myself back in I leaned my head back and closed my eyes. Trying and not succeeding to will away the plane surrounding me and pretend I was just on a roller coaster. Roller Coasters are nice they may jostle you a little but they didn’t make me sick like planes did.

The landing would probably have been the best part of the flight if it hadn’t been for the fact that I had still yet another hour plane ride to take from LAX to the air strip. But I thought the pilots deserved a medal for not making the landing really bumpy.

People actually knew how to get off in an orderly fashion I thought absently as Mr. Rich Hunk dragged me off the plane by the arm. I didn’t even realize that I was half jogging to keep up with him until he stopped us two hallways and a several masses of lounging people away. But I did notice that his grip was cold. So very cold, almost like he’d just spent four hours in a blizzard instead of on a plane whose climate control was set to a balmy seventy degrees.

I looked up at him, holy crap he was tall. I was only about five and half feet tall. And this guy was towering over me. It was a little disconcerting. I think if I had to guess he’d be a little more than a foot taller than me. And he still had my arm in a death grip only it didn’t hurt as much as a death grip should.

He looked down at me as if he felt my gaze on him. Our eyes locked for a moment and I wished they hadn’t. He seemed almost pained. It was bothering me. I hate seeing people in pain. And I hated even more the fact that now that he was looking at me it seemed to be radiating off him and finding a home in me.

“Let go of me!” I said rather loudly but hell I was scared and more than a little pissed off.

Who wouldn’t be I just got dragged off a plane and quite a ways from my parents. It was almost unlikely that I’d be able to find my way back. Considering crowded places tended to leave me disoriented. So my internal compass as you can imagine was all screwed up from the moment I got off the plane.

Mr. Rich Hunk sighed almost as if he were exasperated by me, but he let go of my arm. Which I in turn rubbed enthusiastically trying to get some warmth to flow through it again. He watched almost as if he regretted hurting me. I glared at him internally cursing my own idiocy for letting myself be dragged so far away from my parents.

“You know I can hear that, right?” He was laughing at me.

I hated rhetorical questions. Even though I still managed to stare at him for a good five seconds before being pressed between him and a wall. People ran by us my parents among them talking to walkie-talkies about my disappearance from the plane.

He took my arm in his grasp yet again then and led us into a small alcove between the restrooms. I was surprised not to find about six or seven payphones in between them. That’s usually what covered the expanse of wall wasn’t it. Not some mini alcove of a hallway that I was being led into by a guy I met  a few hours ago by throwing up on him.

“Listen to what I have to say next carefully.” He said as he swung me around in front of him.

All hints of his earlier amusement were gone. He looked so serious. So completely like he was the bearer of bad news. I almost felt sorry for him. I probably would have to if I could still feel my arm.

I raised an eyebrow at him and just shrugged out of his hold and he let me. Something told me that if he really wanted to keep me in it he could have. Personally though., I wasn’t about to care. I wanted away from him. As far away as I could possibly get. After all how much trust could be placed in the words of someone who kidnapped me. There was an explanation for those who did, I just couldn’t remember what it was.

I gave him one quick quizzical raise of my eyebrows then turned on my heel and broke into a run. And at first it had seemed like a fine and dandy idea. Hell I’d almost made it back into the corridor before I was pressed once more into a wall. My head snapping back and hitting the wall.

“Idiot. Are you so desperate to get back to those who would…” He trailed off when I looked up at him.

I cursed finding that now there were three deliciously handsome Mr. Rich hunk’s. Lady Luck really wasn’t on my side today was she? A collective  annoyed sigh from all three of them had my head spinning in pain before he pulled away from me.

“Let’s get you to a hospital, shall we?” He said as he picked me up and had me cradled against him before running out of the airport.

The ride to the hospital was mostly a blur as everything drifted in and out of focus. Even his sensual voice seemed far away for the majority of the ride. But I could tell he was talking to someone. Not only had I managed to get a glimpse of the cell phone he was speaking into. But I could almost feel the car growing tenser and tenser as he got more and more frustrated with whomever he was speaking to.

“Looks like I’m stuck with you for a while.” He muttered clearly thinking I couldn’t understand what he was saying at the moment.

I just moaned in response unable to form intelligible words at that moment and wished the hospital would rise up to meet us, because I had a splitting headache.

I guess someone heard my prayers because we were at the hospital shortly after that being ushered into and examination room because of the lack of consciousness I was exhibiting, or at least I hopped it was the reason. He answered all the questions they asked him. Even going so far as to say I was his younger sister and he was the only one left to care for me since our parents died a few years ago.

I might have laughed at how idiotic that sounded if I hadn’t been in so much pain. But the nurse seemed to buy it. And a doctor came in a few moments later and declared I needed an x-ray. I groaned just what I needed more enclosed spaces.

But it ended in me having a concussion. And a prescription for painkillers and not doing anything that would jostle my head to much. I wonder if flying would be considered jostling my head too much?We were back in his car shortly after that. And we were off to god only knows where. I suppose he knew the best place as any to get me to relax was anywhere without congested streets and skyscrapers because we were outside LA shortly. I was grateful once we were far enough away that I couldn’t smell the sulfur of the car exhaust anymore.

“We’re going to meet up with some friends. And then I’ll take you to Somnus.” He said quietly.

“I see.” I didn’t dare risk nodding.

I reclined the passenger seat and let myself drift off to sleep. It wasn’t that hard after the plane and the concussion. Yes sleep was sounding quite nice at this point.

“Where is she?”

“Sleeping in the car. Why did you have me bring her here? My orders were to deliver the message and then return her to Somnus.”

I woke hearing that. Mr. Rich Hunk had orders to deliver a message to me? Why did he have to take me all the way…out here. Wherever out here was. The crunch of feet on the dirt outside the car made me hunker down in the foot well and try to hide.

They stopped outside my door, then a pause as if they were unsure if they should open the door.

“Stop and think about this. What will kidnapping her prove, but their warped ideas that we shouldn’t exist.” Mr. Rich Hunk’s voice asked quietly.

It was so quiet I could have sworn it was very close to being under twenty hertz. And I don’t mean the car company. I mean the frequency. My father was teaching me basic physics until a couple years ago. Cause supposedly I’m like really smart.

But anyways, they stopped and then their voices dropped. Really low, they were like a faint ringing in my ears. A real faint ringing because I could just barely and I mean barely make out what they were saying.

Finally after a long while the driver’s side door opened and Mr. Rich Hunk got in. He saw me curled up in the foot well and the corners of his lips curled up in what appeared to be a smile. I think he could tell I could just barely understand what they were saying.

He hit the gas pedal hard taking off speeding. I screamed at first surprised. He pulled me up out of the foot well and told me to buckle up. Which I did all too gratefully. I don’t particularly like the idea of going splat against the windshield anytime soon.

“What was all that about?” I asked shifting in my seat to see him.

“You have to be careful. There are people out there who want to use you. And other’s who would want to kill you.” He said.

I stared in shock and surprise. He had to be joking. Why would anyone want to kill me or use me?  I’m not even remotely special. Well except for this one thing but still that was hardly enough to justify killing me wasn’t it.

“You’ll be at Somnus by dawn. You must promise that you will not tell anyone about the events of the last ten hours.” He said turning his gaze away from the road to look at me.

He held my gaze for several long moments before I realized that if he didn’t return his eyes to the road we could hit something. He just smirked but returned his emerald gold eyes to the road anyway. No one has any idea how disconcerting it is to have someone act like they know what you’re thinking. Even if they claim that they can hear it.

But I didn’t have much time to ponder on it. I was growing sleepy rapidly. My eyelids getting heavier by the moment. Eventually I stopped trying to fight it all together and let them close to fall asleep.

I figured I might as well. He was expecting me to anyway considering that I kept feeling his eyes on me whenever I wasn’t looking. And every time I’d yawn or snap my head to wake myself up he’d just smirk some and go back to watching the road. It was like he was waiting for something that he wasn’t entirely ready to share with anyone. Not even me.

Guilt

Give me a signal
Give me a lie
but most of all
Break me and let me die

Somethings are ever changing
And other things undone
You weren’t meant to save me
And we weren’t meant to love

I like hearing you speak to me
Give me a reason to try and break my fall
But the emptiness inside keeps growing
And the pain breaks down my wall

Inside of dreams and heaven
I see you look me in the eyes
You told me once they were kind
In words written as a warning of a lie

I want to keep on singing
That quiet song of pain
The one only you have known
That echoes in the rain

You hear all the things I’m thinking
The bittersweet and lost
These thoughts of mine are darker now
Than the ocean at its deepest

I keep seeing you dying
My a knife in my hands
I’m scared I’ll kill you twice
Scared even more that I won’t survive

It hurts enough to know I helped the first time
And guilt keeps me listening
Trying to prove I’m not the same
You’ve seen me at my worst

But you still won’t let me in
You stopped talking by the end
And on the mornings dawn
When the rays hit your skin

Remember the little sister
Who killed you once
And walked away
Scared she’d kill you again

Sisterhood

Sisterhood
Defined as a bond through blood
Then define for me soroity
Define for me family

As she was more than just my friend
She was my sister to the end
We shared a bond
So deep and true

There wasn’t a secret
That the other never knew
Without her
Things feel a little less vibrant

She was my sister
Formed through experiences
Through trust
And through love

We kept each other alive
When all the world wanted us to die
But something happened just after she left
Time went backwards

And now its like ash is in her place
My heart is full of tears
Words meant for her ears
Never to be said

I wish I could take back the cruel words I said
That night I left her to fend off the creatures of the dead
She fights a battle that I can’t help her win
All because she needs to learn

This lesson of pain and betrayal
That was taught to me by our other sibling
The three of us as family is what we’ll be again
But she needs to open her eyes

And stopping seeing dreams
But her true reflection
See the sister she is
And come back to us

As time calls.

Regret

I had my chance
A month ago
To say goodbye
And I let it go

Now not a day goes by
Where I don’t wonder why.
How on your last night
I didn’t call to say ‘I love you’ one last time.

Why you didn’t call me to ask me why.
Why I didn’t mean enough
To be loved like you loved her
Why…

There’s this deep emptiness in me
Where a piece of you used to be
You gave me that
Three years ago gone by

Everytime I think about
What’s happened to us
I stop and think if I had stopped it then
When it all began three months ago

Would this be happening now
Would I feel so completely abandoned.
You love her
And never me.

Supposedly you asked about me
When you spoke to her
But I don’t believe a word of it
Because she’s trying to make me feel better

About never being loved by the person I love.
I regret two things in this world
Not saying goodbye on that night
And loving you for as long as I did.

Defiled

He named her Anzu
Because for her he cared
Someone named him Kyo
And the two fell in love

According to a story he wrote
Long before she became a gleam in his eye
It shocked me to read
The name he was giving her

And hurt maybe more than I showed
On that night so long, but not, ago
She was with me at my home
Seeking refuge

From a nightmare
That threatened her keep
And it hurt me to know
That I was hating her

For something so small
She didn’t have a choice
It was a name she deserved
It was perfect for her

Like he knew years ago
That one day there’d be a girl
Who’d suit that name
And needed it at the same time

I listened to them talk on the phone
A silent observer in my own home
I wanted to cry but I couldn’t
She needed me more than ever before

That night I held her
As she fell asleep in my arms
I remember thinking
That I’d never let harm come to her

She’s mine to protect
Mine and mine alone
But who will protect me
If he cared so much for her

I saw the words
In between the written and spoken
He would protect her too
Never hurt her unless he couldn’t help it

What a triangle we make up
You’d get him in a heartbeat Anzu
And I would have to give him up
I’d cross flames and death for the both of you

God how I hate
This torn trust
Love a person
But they won’t love you

He never loved me
But had no qualms using me
He never had a second thought to hurting me
I didn’t matter

So every night I make a wish
Upon the star and moon
That one day soon
I’ll die a death deserving of a broken soul

For without true love
I’m dying a thousand deaths
Every time I see him
I break inside

See the shards of glass
Take the paint
And turn them into a masterpiece
Deserving of forevers display

Can you do it
Kyo?
Can you do it
Anzu?

I issue this challenge as my last regard
Good bye dear sister
Good bye my dream lover
I have nothing left to live for.

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